We are not..

We are not made of rose petals
Of flowers that are sure to bloom 
But of the secrets we hold inside us
And the thorns stuck in our shoes.

We are not just our skin 
Or the denseness of our mind
We are made of those summer days
The ones just left behind.

We are not hair colour
Or spots on our back
But of the ones we love
And hobbies that we crack.

Yes, I may have thorns
I may not be set to bloom
But somehow set inside
I cannot keep the gloom.

This may be me today
But tomorrow I’ll have brand new shoes
I’ll walk a different path
Find new tricks to do.

The flowers may be wilting
And the thorns falling out
Winter may be coming
But the next summer helps me out. 

I will surely grow again
Come winter storms and snow
Knock me down, I don’t care
It just leaves room to grow.


How to..Survive A Zombie Apocalypse

Now, this is probably a blog that a lot of people would have done but I thought it was a good one for me to do as I like these type of scenarios and now that I have  a blog, I can write them for all my lovely followers. Let’s get on with the post, yeah?


-How it would start
-Key things for survival (basic detail)
-Ways government would help..
-Zombies themselves
– Key survival items (Detailed)
-Conclusion and my opinion

How it would start

The zombie apocalypse as far as I can see would start by a disease that is currently only carried by squirrels (or animals alike) where even when they die the brain remains active and alive for quite some time after wards, possibly (but don’t take my word on this) allow their limbs to continue to move. This is currently not possible for humans to get and hopefully wont ever be unless it somehow mutates.

So, in overall, it would be the mutation on the viruses that would affect humans and start the zombie apocalypse that would change humanity for the worse, and possibly wipe nations out. Could it be worse than a nuclear bomb?

Key survival items (basic detail)

-Secure hiding spots, preferably higher grounds or something detachable.
-Light weight and easily mobile weapons (Keep polished).
-Food and a lot of water
-Change of clothes and soap

Ways governments would help..

From my angle of perspective there is only three ways the government would help which I will explain to you:

OPTION ONE) Government support

This is the idealistic option but also probably the least likely to happen.
In this scenario we are looking to the government to support us as a country and not just those who are rich and have connections, this would mean that they would have to evacuate the whole country in a short space of time but make sure that no infected people got on, this would cause time delays but it is the best way to do it.
Other countries would hopefully help but I can see major ones declining helping us to take refuge in fear of not wanting to bring the virus there. I think they would however help us to bomb it after all civilians are out to wipe out the virus.

OPTION TWO) Each for their own

This would be where human nature to survive would be to kick in and the government would flee in the early stages, rich people would also flee as they can afford to get out straight away and so would people with boats as they’re easily mobile and can cross oceans. This would leave the ‘lower class’, like me, to defend for themselves which would eventually lead to a purge situation.
In the purge situation people would end up dying from other people killing them over food, water and other supplies.
But, you have to ask, would morality of us humans stop us killing zombies or loved ones? If we knew the zombie doesn’t that increase the emotional torment and willpower it takes to kill it? Some people wouldn’t be able to do it, this would lead to easy kills by the zombies.

OPTION THREE) Time and forces

It starts off the same scenario as option 2, government, those who are rich and people with boats or access to them fleeing. However, I believe in this one that we aren’t totally abandoned, there will be short ‘pick up time’ for the public at certain points where they could go to evacuate.
However, the ‘pick up time’ would indeed be very short and after that the lower class would be left to fend for themselves which would ultimately end up in the purge situation however, option two and three end the same as other countries would eventually seal off their borders to anyone, seal off our borders and send bombs in, regardless of civilians.

The zombies themselves

Due to their brain’s not functioning, as you know, they are dead, they won’t know how to breathe which means respiration won’t happen in the cells which means that they won’t be able to digest as their organs would not be working. This would lead to their stomach exploding when they eat too much, so they would kill themselves.
They would also start to rot due to the fact they can’t respire, so they would be slowly dying.
Zombies would end up killing themselves slowly as well as the living, they would be ineffective at surviving but the virus that caused them would so we would need to evacuate and quarantine the country.

Key survival (Detailed)

Food – This is important as without a good stash of this you wouldn’t be able to survive past 3 weeks, beans is ideal as you can live off of them but remember to ration your food so it lasts as long as possible.
Drink – Water is the ideal drink but you need to stash this and ration it deadly, you can only last 3 days without it.
Hiding spot – High grounds or ships are ideal as you can distance yourself from the zombies when you sleep. A boat is ideal for this as you can dock yourself away from the docks when you sleep or are on it to provide safety. Attics would also be a good things as you would have to pull the ladder/stairs down or have to pull yourself up which means that Zombies would find this hard to do if they did it at all and you can open it and slash zombies  from a safe spot. WHEN YOU GET A HIDING SPOT MAKE SURE IT IS SAFE AND THAT THERE IS NO UNDEAD.
Soap and clothes – This would be important as both of these would result in diseases such as the black plague and such if you did not keep your hygiene up. Wash your clothes and yourself, keep good hygiene and survive not only from zombies but from diseases too!


Weapons play a  very important part in the zombie apocalypse, they play a role in surviving, a very big one. Without these, you probably wouldn’t survive.
The phrase, you are your own weapon, has never been so true before that day. The more self-defense you know, whether it be by body or guns, knifes and other objects, the better.
However, the thing with weapons is that you have to keep them clean and polished, and sharp for  a knife. This entails work but if you survive it will be worth it, so read up on some articles and keep in shape. This could be valuable advice.
You would want weapons that were light and able to move around easily, this would make it the most efficient as long as it did sufficient damage. Weapons like this include; guns, knives, baseball bats, lightweight steel bars.
You would want ones that could decapitate or ones that would puncture of go through the brain, killing it and efficiently killing the zombie as even through vital organs for huamans, such as heart, would allow them to live as the brain is the one in control and infected, they are already dead.

Conclusion and my opinion

In conclusion, although a zombie apocalypse is a dream every gamer has at one point, just to test their skills after playing hours of shooter games, it is a reality that  will probably never happen. Realistically, if they did the morals people have now are significantly a problem if this unrealistic scenario was to happen.

I, even with this knowledge, have a bag packed in my room with everything but weapons and (sometimes) food. I also have  a small shoebox of things and bottles of water as well as a cloth in case of an event like this, or a fire.

So, what do you think? Got any helpful tips, tricks or ideas on what to do? Are you prepared? Do you think you could survive? Think of any way it would pan out? Tell me in the comments! 

Bye for now-
                       Darkling xox

It’s a bit late for the New Year..

It’s a bit late for New Year.
It’s a bit late to make those promises to yourself to change in one way or another.
A diet, love life, money and jobs.

I remember I never did New Years Resolutions as a child, everyone would have to say one in school that they made like ‘to start football’ or ‘learn a new language’, most of which weren’t completed, and when it was my turn I would shrug and say I didn’t make one or use the excuse of ‘get better handwriting’. I think the teachers knew my answers after a while.

However, at this age I still don’t really. I don’t set resolutions and promises for the year as much as just try to make the year good and don’t get me wrong, this one has been amazing! I’ve been to new places and met people who I wouldn’t otherwise, grown closer to people and more but..in so many ways this year has been such a roller coaster and I feel like I need to do something to make the ride more stable because as much as the up is fun, the down feels like crashing and burning.

Last year wasn’t the best by far, and this year looks to be going down hill with some things but it’s also going up with others. I think I need to change. Not fully, not become a new person but change to be better in aspects and learn to appreciate that I matter and to open my mouth at times to defend myself, even if there might be consequences.

So, that’s why, for the remainder of next year and hopefully the years to come, I, Darkling, am going to make positive changes to aspects of my life until I am happy with where I stand in it. It might not be fast progress, not at all, but it will be progress no less and even through doing that, I’m making a positive impact on my life. 

I, Darkling, have decided to do this and make a positive change to myself and my life, using my blog to record them, update you and get inspiration, advice and tips from other bloggers and my fabulous followers. 

That’s all for this post and if any of you are going through anything and want to talk, want to talk in general, have any tips or anything I’ll be posting an email I made months ago in my bio so just message me. 

Like if you liked, share and comment what you thought, inspiring quotes or things and any tips or experiences you feel you want to share! 

Bye for now- 
                      Darkling xox

It’s summer time! 

Hey there guys, it’s that fabulous time of year when the birds come out at ridiculous times in the morning, the heat rises and socailising is pressed onto many people! Isnt that great? 

Okay, so as you can see summer isn’t my favourite time of year due to a number of factors but I know it isn’t as bad as I described (sometimes). 

Let’s be abit jumpy with this post meaning some paragraphs might not flow into the next one, but you’re okay with that, right?

Summer. As described before, and by me being an introvert, summer isnt my ideal time. It makes me feel like I’m going to melt into a puddle of sweat (attractive right?) and gives me alot of spare time to procrastinate with. Not to mention that socailising is pushed onto people more than usual due to the amount of now free time. This isn’t all bad but over socailising leves me exhausted and frankly, dead to the outside world. 

However, living near a beach this gives me the perfect opportunity to catch a tan (if the weather is nice and not temperamental like most British weather), and swim in the sea with friends. The weather can be good sometimes as excessive eating of ice cream is considered a socail norm and more tea, as a hot drink for hot weather, is always a plus. 

This summer though I want to be different, I want it to be fun and full of things that’ll make me smile when I look back on it. Something worth remembering. That’s why I’ve set some goals if you like, one already of being done! 

My first goal was to male atleast one new friend which in my previous post tells you guys I actually made a few. 

The second goal, get a tan and not a burn. This is majorly important as last time I tried to I burned and it wasn’t nice. 

Third goal: Spend some time with my friends, atleast once a week.

Fourth goal is to go on atleast 2 adventures out to places with people you care about. The more you go on the better.  

And last but not least to find a skill, something I love to do and learn and practise it. I currently have no skill I am super talented at and love so I want to do that. 

I think I may add another, which is to upload on here more frequently and talk about anything and everything! What do you think? Got anything you want to hear me talk about?

So, that’s my summer plans and goals, you guys have any of your own? Have you got anything you want me to blog about in the future? Or share any of my goals? Let me know in the comments!

Like if you liked, comment ypur opinion on this post or whatever you want to and share!

Bye for now,

Darkling xox

An Adventure #1

So, I’ve  decided to do a new series of posts on my blog that will give you an insight into my life a bit more, it’s  called ‘An Adventure’, which will be where when I adventure out of my shell (otherwise known as my house) for a specific event or if something fun happens I shall write the ‘adventure’ down in here for you guys to read.

My first adventure shall be on this blog, I went to a ‘Geek Meet’ by a town near me two week ago on Saturday with a few friends and let me tell you, it is one of the best things ever. I made so many new friends (which is shocking for an unsociable person like me), did laser tag and more! It was only my second or third time going but each one has been amazing and has let me make friends and even a boyfriend! (Gasps of shock, I know)

Lets start from the beginning, my friend, we’ll call them Danny, slept over mine and we Skyped our other friend, we’ll call him Nexus, and it was just a laugh. We got the cosplay sorted for the next day, drew in permanent marker (smart right?) what we needed to on our hands and arms to match the characters and just, had a laugh.

The next day, we, well I, woke up when the alarm went off, Danny was already awake. We got ready, me of course laying in bed for another half an hour. Trust me, me and mornings do not mix. Not at all. At this point I’d like to thank Danny  for letting me lend their  cosplays, not just this time but every time. She was a massive help into getting me into cosplaying in general and I am proud to say that more of my own have been ordered!

We were set up, wigs on, out the door and on the train by 11:42 where we met up with Nexus and another person, she was nice but I didn’t talk very much. Like I said, me and mornings don’t mix and I’m not the most sociable when there is a new person, but she was nice and I enjoyed listening to them all converse.

We arrived at quarter past twelve and leaving the train station is when I first got recognised, I was so happy, they asked if they could hug me and then barreled into me when I nodded. It was amazing. It was amazting to be recognised and for the fact I made a new friend, because that’s what we become.

I made new friends throughout the day, through a group of us cosplaying the same anime (but different characters) and even had proper photos took of us in a group photo! I made friends with someone else when they asked me for a selfie and we talked about how we hoth have no socail life. I made another friend by running around with one of the nerf guns they brought, they had the other, and pretending to shoot each other, using human shields and more!

I done laser tag, where they spelt my name wrong drastically (unsuprisingly) and managed to shoot one person numerous times and duel with others that were my friends on the oposite team.

I was hanging around with one person throughout most of the day and we definitely got closer, I found a way to tease her and found out a few things I didn’t know before.

I can say that for a day or so afterwards I slept alot, more than alot. The train ride home was also fun, laid back but fun.

That had to be one of the best days this year, I recomend going to one if you ever get the chance as they are always so fun and one of the best experiences I’ve had (and this is coming from an introvert).

Like if you liked, comment opinions or expierences of your own and share! Thankyou for reading. Any of you been to anything like this? Or any cons?

Bye for now,

Darkling xox


So, I’ve hit a time that is dreaded to most teenagers, the start of exam period. While I still have another year (which means even more exams) in school it’s already bringing me down and stressing me out. It doesnt help that we have builders in my house right now, meaning we have no kitchen.

But anyway, today I did an English exam on Language, and we had to write a leaflet about something we were passionate about and I picked to write about you guys! Well, blogging but you guys are also part of the reason I love blogging so much (even if I don’t upload regularily). 

I thought I’d just put this blog up to let you know how much it means to me that you read my posts and that I will be back shortly, once most of my exams are gone for this year so about three weeks. There are already blogs in the making.

Stay awesome!

Bye for now-
                     Darkling xox

Don’t worry, you’re part of it all.

A few things have recently reminded me of how small we actually are but yet how much of an impact we have on the world, and how the beauty of the world can often go unnoticed by so many. I’m not just on about paintings and buildings but tree’s and flowers, landscapes and sunsets. This is what made me think about blogging to you guys about this.

We have one life (well, that we remember anyway), and we can do so much or so little depending on what we choose, we can save the world or destroy it, we can build someone up or tear them apart and we can choose to fight our demons or let them take us. This is why we must remember to make the most of life and not just ‘go with the flow’ but do what makes us happy.

This could be anything from the little things like reading a book or having a bath to achieving a goal like becoming a pro in our career or getting into our dream university. They are all important things, you do what you want to do in life and try to lead the happiest life you can lead while appreciating those around you. This is an important factor, to appreciate others.

Furthermore, the life we lead can often seem insignificant but ‘It only takes one match to burn a forest down’ and similarly, it only takes one life to change the world for the better or the worse.

So, make the most of it and if you ever feel small remember these quotes and that matter cannot be created or destroyed, only transferred, which means your thighs could have once been a shooting star, your smile could have once been part of a dinosaur and your heart could have once been part of the sparkling sea.

For this post some of my inspirations were:

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This poem by E.H (my favourite poet)


This old, tall oak tree. (My photography)


This flower was given to me walking home, it just shows how one-act if kindness can really uplift another person’s mood.


This is in a town. The shadow of tree looks so beautiful to me. (My photography)


This was my friend’s phone, but it was good for the picture and is a mixture between humanity and nature. (My photography, Snapchat filter) 


Hope you guys enjoyed this! Like, comment your opinions or whatever you feel like, share some experiences or whatever you like! Subscribe and share!

Bye for now-
                       Darkling xox

Body positivity

When you read the title you probably thought it would be another post about it from another blogger saying exactly the same things as everyone else, right? Well, I guess it will be but I hope to bring some other issues to light with it aswell. So, let’s start the post, shall we.

Body positivity is a hard thing to have, even harder to keep in today’s judgemental society. It’s a thing that is vital however, as we can under appreciate ourselves and when looking in the mirror think that how could anyone want us? This is something that you should never think, someone will always want you to be around and instead of thinking about things you proclaim as ‘bad’ about yourself, focus on the positives.

People don’t magically become positive with their body, they need help and support, which is where society comes into it. The way we belittle somebody on times because of their looks can be really demeaning and self shattering to the said person, especially if they find out about it being said or is said to their face.

Another important matter to consider is that some people don’t have control over how they look, whether it be their weight, features, acne or birth marks.

Weight is in important matter to society as a lot of people see being skinny (god, I hate that word) as a good thing and the idealistic state; yes, it can be but being skinny also isn’t ideal. I have a body where I am slim (let’s say that instead of skinny) and I’m not being ungrateful as I know people would like to have the body shape and type I have, but I don’t like it personally, I would rather have a little bit of weight on me than be how skinny I am. I don’t know if this is common but if you feel this way, then it is alright. It can also happen the other way round, where people want to lose weight to gain the perfect body to them.

Just because someone  has the perfect body to you, doesn’t mean they have the body they want.

Another thing is birth marks or genetic inheritances, like Heterochromia, is judged in today’s society, this is not a thing anyone should do as no one can control these factors or make them go away. Instead of judging them, try getting to know the person and judge off personality and not just looks, because, let’s face it, looks can be deceiving.

Now, I’m not going to say the whole, ‘I don’t judge people so why are you?’ Because that’s not true, I try not to judge people but most of the time, there is always that split second when first meeting a person you judge them, I know I’m not alone on that. But, don’t let it influence the way you talk to them or think of them if you can help it and remember that the way they look might not always be voluntary.

So, guys, that’s this post wrapped up and done with I guess. If you liked it then like, comment what you think or whatever, subscribe and share! Thanks guys and remember you’re amazing as you are!

Bye for now- 

                        Darkling xox


So, recently I have been feeling a type of itching under my skin, like a monster or feeling clawing to get out and be released. The only problem is I don’t know how. I don’t have any (productive) hobbies, nothing that gets me moving about or focused and energised and that..bothers me, especially when I feel like this.

However, that doesn’t mean that it will stop me from doing things! I can make something up on the spot, such as drawing, turn on music or go out for a run and plan something for the next day. You can even rearrange your room or blog!

So, I’m going to give you some ways to increase your productivity level! Here goes:

1) Get off the devices: The mobile phones, tablets, computers and more are time dwindling things that ultimately end up using more of your time than you noticed. Not to mention they are addictive.  Try putting it down for an hour, checking it for ten minutes when the hour is up, so you know you have a good chance to be productive!

2) Get up and get active: Getting active can not only improve your health if your running or doing other physical activities, but can improve your mood and day! It releases a hormone when your happy that makes you happy, puts you in a better mood for longer! Who can really deny themselves that? Plus, nothing seems as hard when you get up and actually start doing it.

3) Smile: As with my last point, when you smile it can help to create the ‘happy hormone’ and put you in a better mood, even if you weren’t in a very good one before. Also, your smile can put other people in a good mood!

4) Socialise (maybe?): This depends on the activity and your mood, I’m not a very social person and if you want to be alone, then be alone. Sometimes it can be more fun with your friends though!

5) Don’t spread out to far: Don’t push yourself and spread your activities out to far, this can be tiring and leave you feeling tired or emotionally exhausted. Do what you want to do, not what others want you to do and make sure you know you will be able to stay committed.

So, there’s five tips to increase your productivity! Hope you enjoyed, like if you like and comment whatever you want to! Any other tips? 

Bye for now-

                        Darkling xox

Snakes and Ladders

Life is like a game of snakes and ladders, you are competing with other people to get to goal, the 100. It may not be an actual challenge like a promotion or good exam results but an emotional well-being. People can often put others down to build themselves up or secure themselves, this can be done subconsciously too, it can be one of the snakes in life.

However, unlike the game of Snakes and Ladders we don’t have to move only at certain times or move as a lone party, we can choose to group together and achieve something. Get to that goal faster.

Working in a group can also help with the snakes in life, the set backs and obstacles we can face. Yes, we may still face them and fall behind but we have people to catch us, to stop the fall being so long sometimes and other times to support you when/if you do fall far, let you know it’s alright and that you can get back up again.

The group might also stay with you, you might be friends or become new friends, and help you with other challenges in life. This will also mean that you will have to support them to, it works both ways. To receive the support you must also be willing to give it or eventually it will break off and stop.

I guess the moral of this post is that having people to support you can make challenges you face seem less tough and long, as if you have a foot up and that they may be one of the ladders you can take to get there faster. You also needs to be there for other people, whether it’s through words, actions or both.

If you don’t have anybody right now you will in time and you can accomplish things on your own, it is possible.

Just remember not to take others turns forcefully, don’t bully or disrespect to get your way no matter what as that’s not a ladder in life, its foul play.

You are all amazing and capable of everything you put your mind to! I’m here to talk to anybody who needs someone aswell!

Like if you liked it, share, comment your opinions, stories, ideas, suggestions and whatever else, subscribe and stay amazing!

Bye for now-

Darkling xox

P.S Listen to the song Hearts and Flowers by SayWeCanFly. I listened to it while writing this blog and it’s one of my favourites right now!