This will be the end of the blog. I do not want to continue doing something that is nameless and this name doesn’t fit me anymore. So, I’ll be changing. Starting over again.
Thank you to those who read my blog in its short life. I love you all. I’ll put a link to my new blog in a post but then that will be it.
Hey guys, this is day 3 of Month O’Blog and I know it’s up late but until recently I haven’t known how to answer the prompt I was given.
Who or what do I admire and why?
This was difficult to answer until I had time to really think because honestly, I admire a few different people for more than one reason each.
However, the more I think about it the more I realise in these past months is that there has been one person that I have looked up to and admired the most, even though it can be from afar (in a totally not creepy way). This would be one of my best friends, Danny (fake name). I don’t think I realised I was doing it as much as I was but..I had been, and looking back, alot more than I previously thought I had.
Take for example in school. We don’t always hang out because we have more or less a difference in friendship groups that makes it hard but..I mean this in the most non-creepy way, I found myself watching them and envious, admiring how they can do things that seem impossible or even frightening for me to even think about doing. This is such as socailising and the way they’ve made new people to talk to.
Another thing that I admire about them is their passion, they have so much of it for what they do and honestly, I don’t feel that for alot of things I do. I’m struggling to feel it at all for most things recently. They are so good at most things, they were the ones who got me into cosplay and are one of the only reasons I feel confident enough to go outside without being awkward (more than I already am) and help me get my cosplay in wearing conditions (such as wig styling). They have art which they excel at and other things which they are honestly so good at and, really, I’m completely envious at that because I don’t have something I’m really good at.
It sounds stupid, the last reason I’m going to tell you may sound stupid but I struggle to express my emotions, even when I am in the company of myself. They can express them through crying and laughing or being angry and, I don’t feel like I can. I put a smile as a bottle cap on and just shove them down, mainly because I can’t understand them or how to deal with them in a healthy way like crying.
So, I hope you like this post and leave a like or comment on who you admire and why or what you thought or whatever you want to really!
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Hey, guys! This is my blogging challenge for January, the first month. If you didn’t know I’m doing an Ultimate Blogging Challenge for the whole of January. (I have explained it in this post: Blog O’Month)
So, following this I would like to wish you all a Happy New Year! Make this one a good one to remember! *Throws glitter, baloons drop*
So. I have made some yearly goals to accomplish by December 30th 2017.
- Bake more things to improve skills other than cookies.
- Start to learn another language.
- Spend more time with friends and family.
- Get fitter (run once a week for example).
- Start to learn a new language.
This concludes my first Month O’Blog and I hope you guys tune in to read the rest!
Happy New Year!
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Hey guys! Since 2017 is just around the corner I’m going to start something up for the first month. I’ve signed up for the January Ultimate Blogging Challenge where (presumably) I get emailed ideas on each day I have to write about on here for you guys.
This will start from January first and I am excited to do this for all of January, I hope you guys find it just as fun! I have no idea what I am going to be writing about so this is just as much of a surprise for me as it will be for you!
The link will be at the bottom of this post if any of you guys want to do it aswell! Let me know in the comments if you do decide to!
Also, I’m thinking about collabing or maybe getting someone to write a guest post on my account from someone, anyone that follows me interested? Let me know in the comments!
Anyway, bye guys and have an amazing new year, 2017 and the rest of the days leading up to it!
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Link to the Ultimate Blogging Challenge –
Darkness is something that I welcome, it doesn’t bother me to sit in it or be in it. It’s almost like a blanket, in the day you have to deal with so many things. You get people who you don’t want to socialise with, everyday little things such as a bus running late or a phone freezing that gets on your nerves and wears you down so by the end of the day, with them and fifteen thousand other things included, leaves you drained.
Darkness often doesn’t welcome that. It brings a sense of serenity and peacefulness that is lost in the mad rush of day to day routine and life. It can make it seem as if, just for a moment, that the world has stopped spinning or that time has stopped altogether. For me, that’s kinda peaceful. Sure, I may sometimes get lost in thoughts or I can be up doing stuff like reading or on my laptop but whatever it is, time slows and doesn’t matter for just a few hours.
Although it can create peace and calmness, an illusion that you have time to spare, it can also create deep contemplation and often leads to pain. I’m not saying that this happens every night but, a lot of nights this has been the case for me recently.
I thought I had my life more figured out than this, I thought I could be happy and live in the moment and not over think but..I can’t. I am happy, there is no doubt that when I smile and laugh most of them are genuine because I have amazing friends who do genuinely make me smile just by their voice or presence but, as much as I am happy I feel a settling numbness that sinks in me during these hours.
No, numbness is the wrong word to use, I still feel things deeply but it’s all subdued, like a pressure has settled itself over me and there’s no way out. I don’t know whether this is physical pressure or mental but..it’s there and I feel it. More often than I would like to admit. It’s the thing that stops me from smiling easily, from laughing, from doing anything because I just don’t have the motivation to. For anything.
Like the start of the blog said though, it is something that can bring me great serenity or deep contemplation, sometimes a mixture of both. It’s freeing how something so..dark, so powerful can have so many ways of being seen that it can even bring light and hope and some good to the world and to people.
I guess this blog was for me to ramble, a way that, by the end of it, showed that even the darkest thing can still be a sense of hope for people and for myself.
It’s a bit late for New Year.
It’s a bit late to make those promises to yourself to change in one way or another.
A diet, love life, money and jobs.
I remember I never did New Years Resolutions as a child, everyone would have to say one in school that they made like ‘to start football’ or ‘learn a new language’, most of which weren’t completed, and when it was my turn I would shrug and say I didn’t make one or use the excuse of ‘get better handwriting’. I think the teachers knew my answers after a while.
However, at this age I still don’t really. I don’t set resolutions and promises for the year as much as just try to make the year good and don’t get me wrong, this one has been amazing! I’ve been to new places and met people who I wouldn’t otherwise, grown closer to people and more but..in so many ways this year has been such a roller coaster and I feel like I need to do something to make the ride more stable because as much as the up is fun, the down feels like crashing and burning.
Last year wasn’t the best by far, and this year looks to be going down hill with some things but it’s also going up with others. I think I need to change. Not fully, not become a new person but change to be better in aspects and learn to appreciate that I matter and to open my mouth at times to defend myself, even if there might be consequences.
So, that’s why, for the remainder of next year and hopefully the years to come, I, Darkling, am going to make positive changes to aspects of my life until I am happy with where I stand in it. It might not be fast progress, not at all, but it will be progress no less and even through doing that, I’m making a positive impact on my life.
I, Darkling, have decided to do this and make a positive change to myself and my life, using my blog to record them, update you and get inspiration, advice and tips from other bloggers and my fabulous followers.
That’s all for this post and if any of you are going through anything and want to talk, want to talk in general, have any tips or anything I’ll be posting an email I made months ago in my bio so just message me.
Like if you liked, share and comment what you thought, inspiring quotes or things and any tips or experiences you feel you want to share!
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Hey there guys, it’s that fabulous time of year when the birds come out at ridiculous times in the morning, the heat rises and socailising is pressed onto many people! Isnt that great?
Okay, so as you can see summer isn’t my favourite time of year due to a number of factors but I know it isn’t as bad as I described (sometimes).
Let’s be abit jumpy with this post meaning some paragraphs might not flow into the next one, but you’re okay with that, right?
Summer. As described before, and by me being an introvert, summer isnt my ideal time. It makes me feel like I’m going to melt into a puddle of sweat (attractive right?) and gives me alot of spare time to procrastinate with. Not to mention that socailising is pushed onto people more than usual due to the amount of now free time. This isn’t all bad but over socailising leves me exhausted and frankly, dead to the outside world.
However, living near a beach this gives me the perfect opportunity to catch a tan (if the weather is nice and not temperamental like most British weather), and swim in the sea with friends. The weather can be good sometimes as excessive eating of ice cream is considered a socail norm and more tea, as a hot drink for hot weather, is always a plus.
This summer though I want to be different, I want it to be fun and full of things that’ll make me smile when I look back on it. Something worth remembering. That’s why I’ve set some goals if you like, one already of being done!
My first goal was to male atleast one new friend which in my previous post tells you guys I actually made a few.
The second goal, get a tan and not a burn. This is majorly important as last time I tried to I burned and it wasn’t nice.
Third goal: Spend some time with my friends, atleast once a week.
Fourth goal is to go on atleast 2 adventures out to places with people you care about. The more you go on the better.
And last but not least to find a skill, something I love to do and learn and practise it. I currently have no skill I am super talented at and love so I want to do that.
I think I may add another, which is to upload on here more frequently and talk about anything and everything! What do you think? Got anything you want to hear me talk about?
So, that’s my summer plans and goals, you guys have any of your own? Have you got anything you want me to blog about in the future? Or share any of my goals? Let me know in the comments!
Like if you liked, comment ypur opinion on this post or whatever you want to and share!
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So, I’ve decided to do a new series of posts on my blog that will give you an insight into my life a bit more, it’s called ‘An Adventure’, which will be where when I adventure out of my shell (otherwise known as my house) for a specific event or if something fun happens I shall write the ‘adventure’ down in here for you guys to read.
My first adventure shall be on this blog, I went to a ‘Geek Meet’ by a town near me two week ago on Saturday with a few friends and let me tell you, it is one of the best things ever. I made so many new friends (which is shocking for an unsociable person like me), did laser tag and more! It was only my second or third time going but each one has been amazing and has let me make friends and even a boyfriend! (Gasps of shock, I know)
Lets start from the beginning, my friend, we’ll call them Danny, slept over mine and we Skyped our other friend, we’ll call him Nexus, and it was just a laugh. We got the cosplay sorted for the next day, drew in permanent marker (smart right?) what we needed to on our hands and arms to match the characters and just, had a laugh.
The next day, we, well I, woke up when the alarm went off, Danny was already awake. We got ready, me of course laying in bed for another half an hour. Trust me, me and mornings do not mix. Not at all. At this point I’d like to thank Danny for letting me lend their cosplays, not just this time but every time. She was a massive help into getting me into cosplaying in general and I am proud to say that more of my own have been ordered!
We were set up, wigs on, out the door and on the train by 11:42 where we met up with Nexus and another person, she was nice but I didn’t talk very much. Like I said, me and mornings don’t mix and I’m not the most sociable when there is a new person, but she was nice and I enjoyed listening to them all converse.
We arrived at quarter past twelve and leaving the train station is when I first got recognised, I was so happy, they asked if they could hug me and then barreled into me when I nodded. It was amazing. It was amazting to be recognised and for the fact I made a new friend, because that’s what we become.
I made new friends throughout the day, through a group of us cosplaying the same anime (but different characters) and even had proper photos took of us in a group photo! I made friends with someone else when they asked me for a selfie and we talked about how we hoth have no socail life. I made another friend by running around with one of the nerf guns they brought, they had the other, and pretending to shoot each other, using human shields and more!
I done laser tag, where they spelt my name wrong drastically (unsuprisingly) and managed to shoot one person numerous times and duel with others that were my friends on the oposite team.
I was hanging around with one person throughout most of the day and we definitely got closer, I found a way to tease her and found out a few things I didn’t know before.
I can say that for a day or so afterwards I slept alot, more than alot. The train ride home was also fun, laid back but fun.
That had to be one of the best days this year, I recomend going to one if you ever get the chance as they are always so fun and one of the best experiences I’ve had (and this is coming from an introvert).
Like if you liked, comment opinions or expierences of your own and share! Thankyou for reading. Any of you been to anything like this? Or any cons?
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So, I’ve hit a time that is dreaded to most teenagers, the start of exam period. While I still have another year (which means even more exams) in school it’s already bringing me down and stressing me out.
It doesnt help that we have builders in my house right now, meaning we have no kitchen.
But anyway, today I did an English exam on Language, and we had to write a leaflet about something we were passionate about and I picked to write about you guys! Well, blogging but you guys are also part of the reason I love blogging so much (even if I don’t upload regularily).
I thought I’d just put this blog up to let you know how much it means to me that you read my posts and that I will be back shortly, once most of my exams are gone for this year so about three weeks. There are already blogs in the making.
Bye for now-