Month O’Blog – Day 3

Hey guys, this is day 3 of Month O’Blog and I know it’s up late but until recently I haven’t known how to answer the prompt I was given. 

Who or what do I admire and why?

This was difficult to answer until I had time to really think because honestly, I admire a few different people for more than one reason each. 

However, the more I think about it the more I realise in these past months is that there has been one person that I have looked up to and admired the most, even though it can be from afar (in a totally not creepy way). This would be one of my best friends, Danny (fake name). I don’t think I realised I was doing it as much as I was but..I had been, and looking back, alot more than I previously thought I had. 

Take for example in school. We don’t always hang out because we have more or less a difference in friendship groups that makes it hard but..I mean this in the most non-creepy way, I found myself watching them and envious, admiring how they can do things that seem impossible or even frightening for me to even think about doing. This is such as socailising and the way they’ve made new people to talk to.

Another thing that I admire about them is their passion, they have so much of it for what they do and honestly, I don’t feel that for alot of things I do. I’m struggling to feel it at all for most things recently. They are so good at most things, they were the ones who got me into cosplay and are one of the only reasons I feel confident enough to go outside without being awkward (more than I already am) and help me get my cosplay in wearing conditions (such as wig styling). They have art which they excel at and other things which they are honestly so good at and, really, I’m completely envious at that because I don’t have something I’m really good at. 

It sounds stupid,  the last reason I’m going to tell you may sound stupid but I struggle to express my emotions, even when I am in the company of myself. They can express them through crying and laughing or being angry and, I don’t feel like I can. I put a smile as a bottle cap on and just shove them down, mainly because I can’t understand them or how to deal with them in a healthy way like crying. 

So, I hope you like this post and leave a like or comment on who you admire and why or what you thought or whatever you want to really! 

Bye for now –

                         Darkling xox

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