The End

This will be the end of the blog. I do not want to continue doing something that is nameless and this name doesn’t fit me anymore. So, I’ll be changing. Starting over again. 

Thank you to those who read my blog in its short life. I love you all. I’ll put a link to my new blog in a post but then that will be it. 

Goodbye.

Darkling xox

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Month O’Blog – Day 3

Hey guys, this is day 3 of Month O’Blog and I know it’s up late but until recently I haven’t known how to answer the prompt I was given. 

Who or what do I admire and why?

This was difficult to answer until I had time to really think because honestly, I admire a few different people for more than one reason each. 

However, the more I think about it the more I realise in these past months is that there has been one person that I have looked up to and admired the most, even though it can be from afar (in a totally not creepy way). This would be one of my best friends, Danny (fake name). I don’t think I realised I was doing it as much as I was but..I had been, and looking back, alot more than I previously thought I had. 

Take for example in school. We don’t always hang out because we have more or less a difference in friendship groups that makes it hard but..I mean this in the most non-creepy way, I found myself watching them and envious, admiring how they can do things that seem impossible or even frightening for me to even think about doing. This is such as socailising and the way they’ve made new people to talk to.

Another thing that I admire about them is their passion, they have so much of it for what they do and honestly, I don’t feel that for alot of things I do. I’m struggling to feel it at all for most things recently. They are so good at most things, they were the ones who got me into cosplay and are one of the only reasons I feel confident enough to go outside without being awkward (more than I already am) and help me get my cosplay in wearing conditions (such as wig styling). They have art which they excel at and other things which they are honestly so good at and, really, I’m completely envious at that because I don’t have something I’m really good at. 

It sounds stupid,  the last reason I’m going to tell you may sound stupid but I struggle to express my emotions, even when I am in the company of myself. They can express them through crying and laughing or being angry and, I don’t feel like I can. I put a smile as a bottle cap on and just shove them down, mainly because I can’t understand them or how to deal with them in a healthy way like crying. 

So, I hope you like this post and leave a like or comment on who you admire and why or what you thought or whatever you want to really! 

Bye for now –

                         Darkling xox

Month O’Blog – Day 2

Hey, guys! Day 2 (yes I know I’m posting late but shh, sleep and school starting back and an exam) of Month O’Blog and today I will be answering a question.

Why did I start blogging? 

That’s actually a good question. I started blogging because of a friend really, they started up a blog that made me think that ‘Hey, that’d be cool’ and because I decided to keep it anonymous I could also rant and rave about emotions and anything I feel like I want to.

Blogging has become a way that I can express my emotions freely and helps me feel better about myself. It let’s me reflect on what I feel and even feel like I’m not that alone or isolated as I previously felt before getting my emotions out on a blog post to you guys.

I know I’m not the most continuous blogger with regular updates but I would rather post when something is worth posting about or to give quality content because I know, personally, if I had a set time to post that I  would not or they wouldn’t be up to the standards my usual blogs are.

I started because of the fact that I could ramble and rave and maybe help people if they feel the same or even be a source of amusement to some people. Well, that was a little of it most of it was started for mainly selfish reasons as it allowed me to rant and rave but hey! I changed since then and I couldn’t be more thankful for all of you that follow me and take time to read my posts because you mean the world to me!

Hope you enjoyed this blog, leave a like and a comment to tell me why you started blogging! 

Bye for now – 
                        Darkling xox

Month O’blog – Day One

Hey, guys! This is my blogging challenge for January, the first month. If you didn’t know I’m doing an Ultimate Blogging Challenge for the whole of January. (I have explained it in this post: Blog O’Month

So, following this I would like to wish you all a Happy New Year! Make this one a good one to remember!  *Throws glitter, baloons drop*

So. I have made some yearly goals to accomplish by December 30th 2017.

  • Bake more things to improve skills other than cookies.
  • Start to learn another language.
  • Spend more time with friends and family.
  • Get fitter (run once a week for example).
  • Start to learn a new language. 

This concludes my first Month O’Blog and I hope you guys tune in to read the rest! 

Happy New Year! 

Bye for now –

                         Darkling xox

Month O’Blog

Hey guys! Since 2017 is just around the corner I’m going to start something up for the first month. I’ve signed up for the January Ultimate Blogging Challenge where (presumably) I get  emailed ideas on each day I have to write about on here for you guys.

This will start from January first and I am excited to do this for all of January, I hope you guys find it just as fun! I have no idea what I am going to be writing about so this is just as much of a surprise for me as it will be for you!

The link will be at the bottom of this post if any of you guys want to do it aswell!  Let me know in the comments if you do decide to!

Also, I’m thinking about collabing or maybe getting someone to write a guest post on my account from someone, anyone that follows me interested? Let me know in the comments!

Anyway, bye guys and have an amazing new year, 2017 and the rest of the days leading up to it! 

Bye for now – 
                           Darkling xox


Link to the Ultimate Blogging Challenge –
http://ultimateblogchallenge.com/

Darkness

Darkness is something that I welcome, it doesn’t bother me to sit in it or be in it. It’s almost like a blanket, in the day you have to deal with so many things. You get people who you don’t want to socialise with, everyday little things such as a bus running late or a phone freezing that gets on your nerves and wears you down so by the end of the day, with them and fifteen thousand other things included, leaves you drained.

Darkness often doesn’t welcome that. It brings a sense of serenity and peacefulness that is lost in the mad rush of day to day routine and life. It can make it seem as if, just for a moment, that the world has stopped spinning or that time has stopped altogether. For me, that’s kinda peaceful. Sure, I may sometimes get lost in thoughts or I can be up doing stuff like reading or on my laptop but whatever it is, time slows and doesn’t matter for just a few hours.

Although it can create peace and calmness, an illusion that you have time to spare, it can also create deep contemplation and often leads to pain. I’m not saying that this happens every night  but, a lot of nights this has been the case for me recently.

I thought I had my life more figured out than this, I thought I could be happy and live in the moment and not over think but..I can’t. I am happy, there is no doubt that when I smile and laugh most of them are genuine because I have amazing friends who do genuinely make me smile just by their voice or presence but, as much as I am happy I feel a settling numbness that sinks in me during these hours.

No, numbness is the wrong word to use, I still feel things deeply but it’s all subdued, like a pressure has settled itself over me and there’s no way out. I don’t know whether this is physical pressure or mental but..it’s there and I feel it. More often than I would like to admit. It’s the thing that stops me from smiling easily, from laughing, from doing anything because I just don’t have the motivation to. For anything.

Like the start of the blog said though, it is something that can bring me great serenity or deep contemplation, sometimes a mixture of both. It’s freeing how something so..dark, so powerful can have so many ways of being seen that it can even bring light and hope and some good to the world and to people.

I guess this blog was for me to ramble, a way that, by the end of it, showed that even the darkest thing can still be a sense of hope for people and for myself.

– Darkling

We are not..

We are not made of rose petals
Of flowers that are sure to bloom 
But of the secrets we hold inside us
And the thorns stuck in our shoes.

We are not just our skin 
Or the denseness of our mind
We are made of those summer days
The ones just left behind.

We are not hair colour
Or spots on our back
But of the ones we love
And hobbies that we crack.

Yes, I may have thorns
I may not be set to bloom
But somehow set inside
I cannot keep the gloom.

This may be me today
But tomorrow I’ll have brand new shoes
I’ll walk a different path
Find new tricks to do.

The flowers may be wilting
And the thorns falling out
Winter may be coming
But the next summer helps me out. 

I will surely grow again
Come winter storms and snow
Knock me down, I don’t care
It just leaves room to grow.

-Darkling

How to..Survive A Zombie Apocalypse

Now, this is probably a blog that a lot of people would have done but I thought it was a good one for me to do as I like these type of scenarios and now that I have  a blog, I can write them for all my lovely followers. Let’s get on with the post, yeah?

Contents:

-How it would start
-Key things for survival (basic detail)
-Ways government would help..
-Zombies themselves
– Key survival items (Detailed)
-Weapons
-Conclusion and my opinion

How it would start

The zombie apocalypse as far as I can see would start by a disease that is currently only carried by squirrels (or animals alike) where even when they die the brain remains active and alive for quite some time after wards, possibly (but don’t take my word on this) allow their limbs to continue to move. This is currently not possible for humans to get and hopefully wont ever be unless it somehow mutates.

So, in overall, it would be the mutation on the viruses that would affect humans and start the zombie apocalypse that would change humanity for the worse, and possibly wipe nations out. Could it be worse than a nuclear bomb?

Key survival items (basic detail)

-Secure hiding spots, preferably higher grounds or something detachable.
-Light weight and easily mobile weapons (Keep polished).
-Food and a lot of water
-Change of clothes and soap

Ways governments would help..

From my angle of perspective there is only three ways the government would help which I will explain to you:

OPTION ONE) Government support

This is the idealistic option but also probably the least likely to happen.
In this scenario we are looking to the government to support us as a country and not just those who are rich and have connections, this would mean that they would have to evacuate the whole country in a short space of time but make sure that no infected people got on, this would cause time delays but it is the best way to do it.
Other countries would hopefully help but I can see major ones declining helping us to take refuge in fear of not wanting to bring the virus there. I think they would however help us to bomb it after all civilians are out to wipe out the virus.

OPTION TWO) Each for their own

This would be where human nature to survive would be to kick in and the government would flee in the early stages, rich people would also flee as they can afford to get out straight away and so would people with boats as they’re easily mobile and can cross oceans. This would leave the ‘lower class’, like me, to defend for themselves which would eventually lead to a purge situation.
In the purge situation people would end up dying from other people killing them over food, water and other supplies.
But, you have to ask, would morality of us humans stop us killing zombies or loved ones? If we knew the zombie doesn’t that increase the emotional torment and willpower it takes to kill it? Some people wouldn’t be able to do it, this would lead to easy kills by the zombies.

OPTION THREE) Time and forces

It starts off the same scenario as option 2, government, those who are rich and people with boats or access to them fleeing. However, I believe in this one that we aren’t totally abandoned, there will be short ‘pick up time’ for the public at certain points where they could go to evacuate.
However, the ‘pick up time’ would indeed be very short and after that the lower class would be left to fend for themselves which would ultimately end up in the purge situation however, option two and three end the same as other countries would eventually seal off their borders to anyone, seal off our borders and send bombs in, regardless of civilians.

The zombies themselves

Due to their brain’s not functioning, as you know, they are dead, they won’t know how to breathe which means respiration won’t happen in the cells which means that they won’t be able to digest as their organs would not be working. This would lead to their stomach exploding when they eat too much, so they would kill themselves.
They would also start to rot due to the fact they can’t respire, so they would be slowly dying.
Zombies would end up killing themselves slowly as well as the living, they would be ineffective at surviving but the virus that caused them would so we would need to evacuate and quarantine the country.

Key survival (Detailed)

Food – This is important as without a good stash of this you wouldn’t be able to survive past 3 weeks, beans is ideal as you can live off of them but remember to ration your food so it lasts as long as possible.
Drink – Water is the ideal drink but you need to stash this and ration it deadly, you can only last 3 days without it.
Hiding spot – High grounds or ships are ideal as you can distance yourself from the zombies when you sleep. A boat is ideal for this as you can dock yourself away from the docks when you sleep or are on it to provide safety. Attics would also be a good things as you would have to pull the ladder/stairs down or have to pull yourself up which means that Zombies would find this hard to do if they did it at all and you can open it and slash zombies  from a safe spot. WHEN YOU GET A HIDING SPOT MAKE SURE IT IS SAFE AND THAT THERE IS NO UNDEAD.
Soap and clothes – This would be important as both of these would result in diseases such as the black plague and such if you did not keep your hygiene up. Wash your clothes and yourself, keep good hygiene and survive not only from zombies but from diseases too!

Weapons

Weapons play a  very important part in the zombie apocalypse, they play a role in surviving, a very big one. Without these, you probably wouldn’t survive.
The phrase, you are your own weapon, has never been so true before that day. The more self-defense you know, whether it be by body or guns, knifes and other objects, the better.
However, the thing with weapons is that you have to keep them clean and polished, and sharp for  a knife. This entails work but if you survive it will be worth it, so read up on some articles and keep in shape. This could be valuable advice.
You would want weapons that were light and able to move around easily, this would make it the most efficient as long as it did sufficient damage. Weapons like this include; guns, knives, baseball bats, lightweight steel bars.
You would want ones that could decapitate or ones that would puncture of go through the brain, killing it and efficiently killing the zombie as even through vital organs for huamans, such as heart, would allow them to live as the brain is the one in control and infected, they are already dead.

Conclusion and my opinion

In conclusion, although a zombie apocalypse is a dream every gamer has at one point, just to test their skills after playing hours of shooter games, it is a reality that  will probably never happen. Realistically, if they did the morals people have now are significantly a problem if this unrealistic scenario was to happen.

I, even with this knowledge, have a bag packed in my room with everything but weapons and (sometimes) food. I also have  a small shoebox of things and bottles of water as well as a cloth in case of an event like this, or a fire.

So, what do you think? Got any helpful tips, tricks or ideas on what to do? Are you prepared? Do you think you could survive? Think of any way it would pan out? Tell me in the comments! 

Bye for now-
                       Darkling xox

It’s a bit late for the New Year..

It’s a bit late for New Year.
It’s a bit late to make those promises to yourself to change in one way or another.
A diet, love life, money and jobs.

I remember I never did New Years Resolutions as a child, everyone would have to say one in school that they made like ‘to start football’ or ‘learn a new language’, most of which weren’t completed, and when it was my turn I would shrug and say I didn’t make one or use the excuse of ‘get better handwriting’. I think the teachers knew my answers after a while.

However, at this age I still don’t really. I don’t set resolutions and promises for the year as much as just try to make the year good and don’t get me wrong, this one has been amazing! I’ve been to new places and met people who I wouldn’t otherwise, grown closer to people and more but..in so many ways this year has been such a roller coaster and I feel like I need to do something to make the ride more stable because as much as the up is fun, the down feels like crashing and burning.

Last year wasn’t the best by far, and this year looks to be going down hill with some things but it’s also going up with others. I think I need to change. Not fully, not become a new person but change to be better in aspects and learn to appreciate that I matter and to open my mouth at times to defend myself, even if there might be consequences.

So, that’s why, for the remainder of next year and hopefully the years to come, I, Darkling, am going to make positive changes to aspects of my life until I am happy with where I stand in it. It might not be fast progress, not at all, but it will be progress no less and even through doing that, I’m making a positive impact on my life. 

I, Darkling, have decided to do this and make a positive change to myself and my life, using my blog to record them, update you and get inspiration, advice and tips from other bloggers and my fabulous followers. 

That’s all for this post and if any of you are going through anything and want to talk, want to talk in general, have any tips or anything I’ll be posting an email I made months ago in my bio so just message me. 

Like if you liked, share and comment what you thought, inspiring quotes or things and any tips or experiences you feel you want to share! 

Bye for now- 
                      Darkling xox

It’s summer time! 

Hey there guys, it’s that fabulous time of year when the birds come out at ridiculous times in the morning, the heat rises and socailising is pressed onto many people! Isnt that great? 

Okay, so as you can see summer isn’t my favourite time of year due to a number of factors but I know it isn’t as bad as I described (sometimes). 

Let’s be abit jumpy with this post meaning some paragraphs might not flow into the next one, but you’re okay with that, right?

Summer. As described before, and by me being an introvert, summer isnt my ideal time. It makes me feel like I’m going to melt into a puddle of sweat (attractive right?) and gives me alot of spare time to procrastinate with. Not to mention that socailising is pushed onto people more than usual due to the amount of now free time. This isn’t all bad but over socailising leves me exhausted and frankly, dead to the outside world. 

However, living near a beach this gives me the perfect opportunity to catch a tan (if the weather is nice and not temperamental like most British weather), and swim in the sea with friends. The weather can be good sometimes as excessive eating of ice cream is considered a socail norm and more tea, as a hot drink for hot weather, is always a plus. 

This summer though I want to be different, I want it to be fun and full of things that’ll make me smile when I look back on it. Something worth remembering. That’s why I’ve set some goals if you like, one already of being done! 

My first goal was to male atleast one new friend which in my previous post tells you guys I actually made a few. 

The second goal, get a tan and not a burn. This is majorly important as last time I tried to I burned and it wasn’t nice. 

Third goal: Spend some time with my friends, atleast once a week.

Fourth goal is to go on atleast 2 adventures out to places with people you care about. The more you go on the better.  

And last but not least to find a skill, something I love to do and learn and practise it. I currently have no skill I am super talented at and love so I want to do that. 

I think I may add another, which is to upload on here more frequently and talk about anything and everything! What do you think? Got anything you want to hear me talk about?

So, that’s my summer plans and goals, you guys have any of your own? Have you got anything you want me to blog about in the future? Or share any of my goals? Let me know in the comments!

Like if you liked, comment ypur opinion on this post or whatever you want to and share!

Bye for now,

Darkling xox